This & That

Latest & Greatest News in My Life

I’m still alive & kicking – well kinda!

Haven’t been around much online lately, real life’s been getting in the way of my cyberlife. I haven’t even logged in to Twitter lately to see what everyone’s been up to & whats going on in the world… I know it’s sacrilegious!!

But I managed to get my left and right feet completely confused and missed the bottom step as I walked out of the supermarket. I went ‘SPLAT’ like a starfish all over the footpath, groceries everywhere, coke bottles exploding and bread getting squashed. I’m sure it would’ve been a total sight.

According to the incredibly rude and dis-interested Doctor I didn’t manage to break or fracture anything, but the girls don’t agree. My Ankle has swollen up and looks somewhat like a squashed football, turning various shades of purple & blue. If only I had a camera and could show you – It’s kinda pretty in an ugly kind of way.

Anyway I think I may have mentioned a possible new FWB on twitter about a week ago. He’s actually quite sweet and nice, just a shame he doesn’t live closer. I met him online a few months ago, we got along well. He has great taste in music, is laid back and cruisey and there’s no doubt we’d hang out as friends all the time if he lived near by. Anyway a month or so after I met him, long before I could get my act together to go meet him some other woman snapped him up – my timing always sucks!! lol

Now another month or two later she spat him back out all chewed up and broken hearted.  Some women fucking piss me off – I know not all relationships work out, but what she did really stinks. Waking up one morning to say ‘I don’t love you anymore’ and then showing him the door. Oh well, her fucking loss I guess.

It’s neither the deep seeded kind of connection I felt when I first met -B, but I doubt I’d ever feel quite that way about anyone else (There’s a huge long back story that started when I was 14 that made the whole thing with -B special) yet he makes me smile and laugh and feel somewhat special. But here’s the crux, I don’t want enough of a relationship to call anything committed, yet at the same time I know I’m never going to be able to just have totally anonymous sex with someone I’ve just barely met. Christ after months of fucking -B I never quite managed to let go and be as sexually uninhibited as I actually am, so can’t see it happening in a situation without any kind of emotional investment. Being insecure and having low self esteem coupled with I guess a negative self image can be quite inhibiting to ones sexual freedom.

I won’t be going anywhere for the next week or so due to my ankle & X taking the car just to be spiteful (Yet another massive fight with X last weekend) so I’ve got time to get to know him a little better and maybe even a chance to consult -B. Although I never let go physically with him, I can tell that guy anything, he’s like a rock sometimes. So that’s about it. I busted my ankle and am stuck high & dry & horny, hopefully this situation will resolve itself…..and soon.

Violet xx

WTMFI Wednesdays #23 Sex & Music

⚤Sex & Music ♫

Sex & Music are possibly my two Favourite Things in Life. When they combine – It’s bliss.

This Weeks Questions

1. How often do you listen to music during sex? Do you wish you did it more often?
2. What are 5 songs that you love to have sex to? Why?
3. Have you ever given or received a lap dance from a professional? What about from a non-professional? Which did you prefer or which do you think you would prefer?
4. Do you find when you listen to music while you have sex, that sex generally tends to follow the rhythm of the music? Do you use that advantageously?
5. Does having music on make you feel more sexy?

BONUS QUESTION:
Do you think that you could ever strip professionally?

My Answers

1. How often do you listen to music during sex? Do you wish you did it more often?

Barely ever, Life is so much better when it has a sound track. Same thing goes for my sex life. Sadly I’ve wasted so much time fucking someone who couldn’t give a shit what I like, so no music whilst fucking. I wish music was playing constantly – and as it’s never playing when I’m having sex I sure as hell wish it was playing more often.. even just on the odd occasion would be nice!

2. What are 5 songs that you love to have sex to? Why?

Who doesn’t want to have sex to Closer by Nine Inch Nails?

I’ve also always felt Israel’s Son by Silverchair has that perfect hip rocking girl on top style bass line – it’s hard to just choose 5!!

All My Life by the Foo Fighters – just cause it shows you just how dirty his mind is (you tube won’t let me embed the original – bastards!)

East Jesus No Where by Green Day- that opening riff – & the drum line

And I have to round out my top 5 with the song that makes me want to fuck the most – ‘No one Knows‘ by Queens of the Stone Age – featuring none other than Dave Grohl on drums (surely you get the theme running through this list

And ‘If loving you is wrong’ by faithless – well who doesn’t want to either get naked or fuck after listening to that. There’s Probably a hundred more I could list… I think its the bass line that gets me!

3. Have you ever given or received a lap dance from a professional? What about from a non-professional? Which did you prefer or which do you think you would prefer?

No , never even been to a strip club let alone had a lap dance & never had an amateur one either. I’ve seen a lot of strippers are parties and such giving lap dances & more, but even that was way too long ago.

4. Do you find when you listen to music while you have sex, that sex generally tends to follow the rhythm of the music? Do you use that advantageously?

Yes, yes & more YES. I suck at keeping a good rhythm going over an extended period of time, so music is definitely a plus if I’m in control of such things. Just one of the many reasons I’ve always wanted to fuck a musician

5. Does having music on make you feel more sexy?

Music – full stop turns me on as a whole, so hell yeah – Music definitely makes me feel sexier than silence.

BONUS QUESTION:
Do you think that you could ever strip professionally?

Absolutely not, Not with this body, If I had my pre baby body – I possibly would, but there’s no way in hell I would now

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WTMFI Wednesday #22 All About Anal

Anal Explorations

“That’s Tight”

This Week’s Questions

1. What are your thoughts on anal sex? Have you ever had it?
2. Do you enjoy watching porn with anal sex?
3. If you’ve had anal sex, what was your first time like? If you haven’t had anal sex and want to, what do you hope for your anal sex experience?
4. Do you own any sex toys for anal penetration? If not, do you want to?
5. Do you always use condoms or do you sometimes allow bareback?

BONUS QUESTION:
What are your thoughts on society’s negative views of anal sex?

1.What are your thoughts on anal sex? Have you ever had it?

I’m pretty open So my thoughts on Anal… Well I’m certainly open to it, but it’s certainly something that it up to the individual. I’d written it off for years & years before I decided to give it another go.

I’ve only ever had Anal with One partner, but there was over a decade between the first period of time I when  was having Anal with him and the second time we tried, and since then I’ve lost count of the number of times we’ve done it. But the first time round it was rather painful to start with, probably because I was young, naive and doubt there was any lube involved. Second time round it’s all been intensely pleasurable because I knew exactly what I was doing & understood how it all worked thanks to Alexa and her blog the realprincessdiaries.com.

Education & understanding how my body works as well as what’s going on when you have Anal made it so much easier. I look back on my initial foray into anal & think ‘how naive’ Would you go about giving birth without understanding the physical process? Anal’s so much easier & therefore fun if you know whats going on.

For more on the what, Where And How to’s of Anal check Out these three great Posts from the Aforementioned Alexa. Start out With Preparing for your first Anal; If I had of read this all those years ago before I even tried having Anal sex I doubt there would’ve been any pain, discomfort or worry of any kind. Wether you are male or female I recommend you read it, even if it is only so that you have a better understanding of how it all works. Guys if you like the idea  of having Anal sex with a woman I suggest you bookmark it, It’s helped at least one of my mates to venture into previously uncharted territory.

Enema’s and More on Anal Sex is like the secondary level of your Anal education from Alexa

Even now, re-reading it after turning into a total butt slut, there’s much to learn on the subject and knowledge is power. What better power to have than sexual power, so even if you’ve been fucking your ass off for years you still just might learn something.These two are the Main Anal articles on her site, but there are plenty more Anal Sex Posts on her blog - If you want to try out Anal read as much as you can both on her site and others.

2.Do you enjoy watching porn with anal sex?

Yeah, I honestly do. But I enjoy anal immensely and I watch a lot of Double Penetration Porn, I guess because it’s number 1 on my Sexual Bucket List.

But it’s Also Anal Porn that bothers me the most. It is simply not safe to do ATM or Ass To Mouth, I hate that it makes it seem in anyway acceptable and that it gives some the impression that they can request to stick their dick in your mouth after it’s come out of your ass. Same goes with Vaginal sex after Anal. There’s all kinds of bacteria up your ass, stuff you really don’t want in your Vag, I can only imagine the kinds of infections that could lead to. If you want to do Anal then stick it in another hole, wrap that dick in a condom for fuck’s sake.

3. If you’ve had anal sex, what was your first time like? If you haven’t had anal sex and want to, what do you hope for your anal sex experience?

The very, very first time I had Anal was about 15 years ago when I was 16. I must admit it was painful and only slightly pleasurable. I was doing it because he wanted to. The thought of needing, let alone using lube never crossed my mind, If we had used lube I doubt it would’ve been painful. If I knew than what I know know in regards to Anal sex I’m sure it would’ve been a hit & there wouldn’t have been a decade & a half between Anal Adventures.

I was scared to try it after my son was born, sadly haemorrhoids often develop during pregnancy as well as during the pushing part of the birthing experience. I got off pretty lightly in that department, but still it was an issue in my mind (I’ve found my mind is sometimes my worst enemy when it comes to sexual pleasure)

I also suffer from Endometriosis, a condition where the lining of the uterus (the Endometrium) decides to take up residence in places it really shouldn’t. My case is on the extreme end with it gluing all my pelvic organs together and deciding to migrate to both my lungs and the inside of my rectum and bowel. Don’t ask me how the heck it gets in such places, I just know it’s there and it causes me all sorts of issues. I was really worried about tearing things that might be stuck together, but some logical thought made me realise if something can come out without tearing anything, surely something could go back in.

So with Education, Information, Awareness of my own body & the all important lube, second time round Anal has been nothing but an absolute joy.

4. Do you own any sex toys for anal penetration? If not, do you want to?

I do, I have a stunning crystal Delights Plug I scored out of my sister, and also really enjoy my Glass Wand for Anal Play. When it comes to Anal Play with sex toys the toy MUST have some sort of flared base to ensure that it doesn’t slip inside – which would lead you to an embarrassing trip to the hospital to have it removed. Similar warning regarding Large toys and Anal Play. Unlike the Vagina the Rectum Doesn’t really stretch. You can gradually stretch what feels comfortable being inserted, but it isn’t going to stretch in length. Respect that fact, and the fact that pain means something is not right and you shouldn’t have any problems.

5. Do you always use condoms or do you sometimes allow bareback?

In no way do I recommend or condone having un-safe sex, especially un-safe Anal sex as there is a higher risk of contracting an STD such as HIV via Anal sex than Vaginal Sex. However most often My Anal Adventures have all been bareback – but also with the same monogamous partner I was with for 15 years. If ever I were to have Anal, or any form of penetrative sex with someone else there would most certainly be a condom involved.

Second time round we were using condoms for Anal until I was comfortable with it (they seemed to cause less friction & discomfort on entry), but that soon ended. It’s also important to use condoms with sex toys used for Anal Play unless they are able to be fully disinfected and sterilised like glass.

Bonus Question:

What are your thoughts on society’s negative views of anal sex?

I don’t really give it much consideration to be truly honest.But maybe the fact that the vast majority see it as being so taboo that makes it even more alluring and of course fun.

If you Want more Info On Anal Other Articles that may be of interest or assistance include:

New To Anal Sex - on the Frisky Blog – This article on Anal includes important information regarding the two different sphincter muscles and how they work. Kind of important to Understand so you don’t go hurting yourself by trying to go to fast, or trying to insert anything too big.

Anal sex from the library @ Rotten.com

And as much as it pains me to link to this site, they do have a rather good guide to Anal Sex Toys and Anal Play from the site that has become known for being the sex shop you can’t trust

Unless you are thinking about some full on Anal play I wouldn’t recommend you read this Article, but if you are looking to push your Anal Boundaries, this post could save you from serious damage & in extreme cases death. Sometimes Anal Play can go too far

My blog, My Body, My Camera, My Life

Since I began this blog I’ve been having so much fun. I’ve been exploring parts of myself I never really knew existed and have been doing so in ways I never would’ve. Originally my intention was to show others that not all women are porn hating prudes, Soon I discovered I really didn’t need to prove that point, as there are so many hot and horny female bloggers… I felt the point I wanted to make was already being made.

Since my blogs conception I had planned to review my latest sex toy purchase, the We Vibe2 f , but never could’ve imagined anyone would send you free toys to review. My current arrangement with AdultSexToys.com came after I entered a give away they were running. Soon I will be finished with my first batch of reviews and will be running my first Give Away, Celebrating the launch of AdultSexToys.com new website,

Becoming affiliated with any company wasn’t something I had planned on, I wanted to blog merely for the love of it, but If I’m talking all about sex toys, it’s reasonable to assume someone may wish to buy sex toys I’m discussing. And as it doesn’t cost the customer anything why not become an affiliate and get a cut from the company rather than sending them customers for free? Being an affiliate allowed me to move my blog to it’s own domain where I could dress it up in any theme I wanted to and host whatever content I wanted to in whatever way I want to… Im not too cool with conforming to rules lol.

Most importantly I started this blog to express myself, discuss what was at the time my two kinda complex sexual relationships and planned on continuing to do so, along with a mixture of weird sex facts, Porn Pics and clips, and well whatever else I found to blog about related to sex. Just like Stienbeck wrote “the dreams of mice and men often go awry” and now I’ve both lost my fwb – now simply known as -B and am not really intending to speak to X let alone fuck him anytime soon – you’ll realise why shortly.

I loved that I found WTMFI Wednesdays, I love memes, and am the queen of the over share, so it really has been an easy way to share more of my sexual self without having to work out how to structure the posts myself. It’s kind of like formspring, but organised! So many questions, so many answers. Bing, Bang, Boom, an easy post to write that truly shares my sexual self with my readers.

Then I found Wanton Wednesdays, Sapio Slut’s Scavenger Hunt & Half Nekkid Thursday. Years ago I’d made sex tapes and brought the camera into my sex life, but these three sites gave me a real excuse to both push my boundaries and become more confidant within my own skin. I never realised just what a rush it would be to flash my tits at the camera whilst out in Public. It made me feel re-born. The First time there wasn’t anyone around, but the 2^nd time was at a really busy truck stop right beside the petrol pump. It was such an overwhelming sensation of freedom. On my way home I was planning just how I could pull off taking photos at some of the other places on the scavenger hunt list.

I was very hesitant to post the pictures, I’ve never much liked the skin I exist within. I even went so far as to publish a self deprecating rant before posting the pictures because I am not happy with my body and am kind of ashamed of it. But the response of my readers and twitter friends was so supportive and encouraging that I felt like a whole new door was opening for me. I was really starting to accept myself.

My first Wanton Wednesday was just my leg in my favourite striped sock, I had planned a much much hotter, much more artistic shot, but X sucked as a photographer. Yet that didn’t matter, the response I got on my site and on twitter… yet again was fantastic.

I didn’t make it to half Nekkid Thursday, a huge bomb got dropped on my life. One that still could possibly cause even further damage. I was issued a fine for over $104,000.00 – Why? Very Basically because I share a roof one night a week with my ex partner and a Government Bureaucrat decided that means he should be financially responsible for me. I had always been upfront and 100% honest with Centrelink (Australian agency responsible for all kinds of Government Benefits) before I even moved in with this person….Which is X (He may seem or it may come across as though he was my husband, I’ve probably even called him my ex husband – because that’s what I’m used to calling him & I feel expresses the true relationship easily & succinctly.) Yes I do live with him, even if it’s one day a week, Yes I do sleep with him… but that’s none of their fucking business! And yes we share a child. So what’s the difference? He is not my husband, we are not in any kind of committed relationship other than that of parenting our son, and most importantly he isn’t, nor has he even been financially responsible for me. If it weren’t for 4 weeks that we lived together as a couple way back when I was 16 this issue wouldn’t exist.

I told X of the situation when he got home for the night on Saturday. He didn’t take it too lightly. Which I do understand. He has basically been told that he’s financially responsible for me, and therefore responsible for the $104k. A rather large, rather violent fight eventuated from this.

Why am I telling you about all of this?

Because my amazing Camera, the one that was helping to really pull me out of my shell got broken. I managed to save my laptop, but the camera was a casualty of the war.

As much as the experiences with the camera lifted me up, the sadness and depression of loosing it buries me. Stupid huh? Depressed over a camera. But it’s more than the camera, it’s that way of expressing myself and freeing myself that I’m grieving for.

Sorry for the rambling, rant like post, but I’m seriously bummed by this. I wish I could run away and hide with -B. Damn him for falling in Love. I need him to fuck my pain away.

I’ll overcome the loss of the camera, I’ll start re composing myself. I guess I’m also sad I no longer have someone to take my sexual frustrations out on, on top of the feeling that the sexual/ spiritual journey I was on has hit a roadblock with loosing X and the camera. Fuck my life’s pathetic at the moment,

Hopefully I’ll get back to the happy fun me I was when I began my blog and hopefully Ill sort this fine BS out. I don’t really want to keep living with X, but I don’t want to break my kids family up. Hard decisions lie ahead… Beware this ride may become bumpy… and not in a fun sexy way.

But I hope you’ll be seeing more of me soon

Violet xx



Wanton Wednesday #13

Wanton Wednesday

Over the weekend I had a load of drama’s with X – dumb bastard… Sadly my camera (amongst other things) became a casualty of that war. So no brand new pics…but….

I’ve already admitted to loving stripey socks, but I wouldn’t class it a true fetish, where as this is definitely a fetish for me, whether the ink is permanent on not, writing on skin just does it for me. I don’t know the technical name of said fetish, but it does exist. This much I know is true.

And then I got all artsy with it.

Why don’t you come join the Wanton Wednesday Fun, or just Visit Wanton Wednesday to see all of the other participant’s pics… Hopefully next week my photo won’t still be all about my legs.

Violet xx

p.s. it says “I Declare that my Love is True”

My Sexual Bucket List

The Sexual Things I must do before I die

I saw a list on someone’s blog of 12 sexual experiences they wanted to have before they died. With a browsing history as long, vast and colourful as mine I’m not surprised that I can’t find the blog again. However I do know what’s on my personal ‘Sexual Bucket List’. A list of sexual acts &/or experiences I want to have, experience or explore before I die. I started out with 12 Things, but my bucket list stretched to 15 16, it may even grow in the future, but for now this is my List:

#1 Is to have a MFM threesome.I’ve taken part in a few different FMF threesomes, all of which were years & years ago, but all incredibly fun & pleasurable. I’ve even done the FFF style threesome, I just haven’t had the opportunity to participate in the MFM version of a threesome.

X Loves the idea, It’s his #1 turn on, I’m just not sure if he could cope with the jealousy that could possibly brew in the aftermath. (I don’t know If I want anything to do with him after the bullshit tantrum he threw on the weekend that ended up in a fistfight, let alone wanting to fuck him again though.) But if ever I do change my opinion of him, I’ve found the 2^nd M for the mix… or at least I think I have, not 100% sure he was serious. It’s hard to know whether or not to believe a man when he’s thinking with his dick rather than his brain – but if & when I do organise it, you will be the first to know.

I also want to experience double penetration, it’s my true number one not yet experienced fantasy, but as it requires a MFM threesome for it to eventuate it gets thrown in with MFM at #1.

#2 It’s a little Vanilla, but I want to have sex in water. I’m a Pisces and have always been at one with water, I just haven’t gotten around to having sex in the water yet. I’ve done it on beaches (North Cronulla – like in Puberty Blues) and Even the Sandhills (where Mad Max was filmed) I Just never made it to the water. I’ve heard all the awful stories of getting sand where you don’t want it, but am happy to settle for still water like a swimming pool, or a lake.

#3 Despite having slept with more than a few females I’ve never had the experience of using a double ended dildo, allowing both female partners to be penetrated by the other simultaneously. I love Pussy and could spend a year, licking, tasting, eating pussy, touching it, playing with it… – I Love all things pussy! Grinding against each other, clit to clit, scissors style feels great, Id love to feel that mixed with the sensation of penetration. I’m sure it has to be the ultimate feeling when it comes to girl on girl fucking – maybe someone slightly more experience can tell me if I’m wasting my lesbian dreams on an unsatisfying act or not.

#4 Is to give someone their un-realised fantasy. A little like a sexual fantasy Genie. Everyone has fantasies, most of us have at least one un-conventional one, one that our partner or partners have no interest in. Before I die I’d like to help make someone’s unrealised fantasy a reality. I imagine someone who’s had this deep seeded longing for years and years, one that has always been denied. For some reason when I think of this one I envision a married man despite the fact I’ve sworn never ever to fuck with another man whose married ((engaged or somehow otherwise invested in a long term relationship, especially if children are involved)). Guys a bit like the UnWanted Husband, one who’s been used, maybe abused and just ignored sexually, those who if they are married the ‘cheating’ damage has already been well and truly done – I’d like to give at least one person their deepest, dirtiest denied desire. Just as long as my actions couldn’t lead to breaking up a family. I think I could even get some kind of BDSM kink on for this one despite my general dislike of such, If it got the person in question off I’d be glad to do pretty much whatever – just no two girls one cup shit!

#5 Another is to get paid for sex, or rather have sex for money as I think the two can differ at times. As a teenager I always wanted to be a prostitute, I guess it was some kind of romantic notion caused by pretty woman((I also wanted to be a nun after watching ‘Brides of Christ’ and longed to marry Marky Mark – long before he dumped the funky bunch and became a hot movie star.. I have strange notions at times!)) and although I was propositioned once or twice, I never slept with anyone or performed any sexual act explicitly for money. But I pretty much gave it away for free to any guy who gave it a try. The reason I didn’t take the offering of $$$ when propositioned was because the guys made me want to puke,I really disliked the idea of not being able to choose who I fucked so I never became a professional teenage whore. I did accept $100 off of X for a blow job, but don’t think he really counts. But with this $105k debt looming over me, I may get to cross number 5 off my list sooner than I had expected

#6 I’d like to Be a Cam Girl. I would probably prefer to try being a cam girl before I turned to out & out prostitution. I’ve been a phone sex operator before and think that becoming a cam girl is the natural next step from there. I’ve had sex whilst people watched via web cam, so don’t think it would be a big deal to me once I got my head in the right place. My personal self-esteem and body Image both suck, something I’m working hard to improve via things such as writing this blog and participating in things like The Scavenger Hunt & Wanton Wednesdays, being a Cam girl would be a HUGE step towards my goal of loving myself & my body. If & when I do decide to go in that direction – again I’ll be sure to let you know.

#7 I want to either make another woman squirt, or teach a guy how to make me do it, so he can go on to teach another woman It has to be more fun with a partner than it is on my own and it could be teamed up with my #12 and kill two birds with one stone.

#8 Have someone eat or lick gooey food stuffs off of my skin &/or do the same to someone else. I know it isn’t really out there, but again I’ve never tried it. Same with Sex on the Kitchen bench. I’ve wanted to have Kitchen Bench sex since I was way to young to be thinking about it. The closest I ever came was with my childhood sweetheart, but for some reason we never actually had sex despite the fact neither of us were virgins…We still don’t know why we never fucked! I do have this one very particular fantasy regarding -B & my Kitchen bench, but seriously doubt that will ever eventuate.

#9 Sell my Underwear Online. I hate the word ‘panties’ or any derivative there of, but after being with someone with such a fetish It truly rubbed off on me, anyone who’s seen my tumblr feed at sexviaviolet.tumblr.com can attest to this. Considering I’m down to my last $50 this is quite likely to eventuate… if anyone wants them

#10 Have anonymous, or close to anonymous sex with someone, by that I mean no blind date style anonymous sex – But within hours of first meeting someone, I’d just like one more good, no real names, one night stand before I die…please

#11 To get really drunk and fuck like I have no Inhibitions preferably with someone other than X or -B.

Although I don’t really have any inhibitions when I’m with X, there’s so many things he’s picky about that make being truly free sexually impossible, i.e.: having to have a shower before we have sex, even if I’ve just showered, and even then he has a huge issue with going down on me, I forget the last time he did. No doggy style sex because he can’t stand the sight off my ass hole – Because My ass hole is one of those darkly pigmented ones he deems it too dirty to look at… But he’s happy to stick his dick in that ass and couldn’t care less if he pulled it out covered in shit (I know this because I asked him about it on the weekend.

Writing this makes me realise just how much he has stifled the true me.

And although I said it has to be someone other than -B, I’d love to be that way with him, he kinda deserves it after all the shit he’s put up with from me.

#12 Very very unrealistic, but I’d love to participate in some form of ‘glory hole’ style kinkiness, but I’d much prefer to be bent over and fucked than be on my knee’s giving bj’s..but I did say it was unrealistic, possibly impossible, but fuck it, it’s my list.

#13 It’s my dirtiest darkest item on my list… To live out my own one truly ruley dirty fantasy, or dirty sexual act rather. I’ve always wanted to pee in a guys mouth – don’t know quite why, maybe because I hate X and the idea of being able to be dominant and kind of abusive to him turns me on. That’s my usual go to fantasy when I need that extra push in order to cum. I imagine standing up whilst he’s on his knees, my hand tightly mingled in his hair whilst he goes down on me and I get to kind of forcibly fuck his face. Eventually pulling his head away from my pussy and peeing all over him. I’d equally like to squirt in a guys mouth, so either or, not too fussed, but I’d like to do one of those before I die. I’ve played all kinds of ‘Water Sports’ with him, both giving and receiving…Just never in his mouth ((Stupid picky bastard – sorry I’ve really got my hate on for him today))

#14 Finally…because I forgot about it two more recent sex toy items, I want to try the club vibe from ohmibod out during a Mosh Pit and fuck someone with the feel doe or similar non harness style strap on cock (is it still a strap on cock if it doesn’t actually ‘strap on’?) be it guy or girl I’d really like to try that thing out. I wonder if it feels as good as it looks, or if it is as hard to use as I’ve read. I’ve got plenty of other sex toy hopes & dreams, but there’s so many they require their own bucket List. I may even write that list today, I’m very bored and incredibly lazy today.

#15 And to finish… the most ridiculous of all. I’ve always wanted to have sex in a mosh pit, no matter how ridiculous, impossible & painful it could possibly be. Music turns me on, the higher the volume the wetter I get. I’ve had backstage sex, but never crowd side. I’m happy to die without fulfilling #15, but it’s a fantasy & deserves to be here no matter how impossible it would be in practice.

But wait I forgot one… #16 I’ve always wanted to fuck using a great sex swing. Even at my thinnest most anorexic self I wasn’t exactly light as a feather, I’d love a great sex swing so I could get into all kinds of weird and wonderful positions. A regular swing was plenty fun, I imagine a sex swing would be infinitely better, I even have the perfect basement for it – & trust me In Australia Basements are incredibly rare.. It’s really just a big area attached to the side of the garage- but the big Metal beams that are all painted a shiny deep red make it feel perfect for a sexual dungeon.

So what about you?

Do you have a Sexual Bucket List? Any Sexual experiences you want to have before you die? Any act you wish to do before you leave this life?

If you do, publish your List and leave a comment with the link to it . It doesn’t have to be 16 things, or even 12, It can be as many as you like… It’s your list. If you do & you link it back to here I’ll get off my lazy ass and make a cute little sexual bucket list button for you to use (I’m just being very very Lazy today)

The Voyeur in me would love to know what’s on your list.

Violet xx

Scavenger Hunt – Truck & Petrol Pump

I Flashed My Boobs

I mentioned Sapio Slut’s Scavenger hunt in my last Weekend Reading post and ever since I first discovered it I’ve really wanted to take part. I don’t have the body to flaunt like Sapio Slut Does, nor do I have the Sexy Self Esteem Of Curvaceous Dee, but I still managed to flash my boobs in public places… Twice!

First time was In front of X’s Truck Last Sunday Night – I live no where near a train line & even if I did I’d never get on one. I’ve been phobic of trains since my brother got killed by one when I was 8 – So Road Train Will Just have to do.

The Truck

And I guess I can’t put it off much longer…

Then On Tuesday Night I went And met him out at the truck Stop on the highway and was in the position to flash my boobs at the Petrol Pump.I wasn’t scared to ‘flash’ at the world, there were only a few truck drivers around, and a camera that fed into the service station, but I didn’t care because I didn’t need to go in there. Once he had finished filling up we were moving to the other end of the truck stop to fuck.

Then I offered to climb up and clean his windows for him, hoping to get the perfect shot of my ass for my Wanton Wednesday Post. Once I climbed up the side of the open Bonnet He passed me the squidgey Window washing thing and I started washing the drivers side of the windscreen whilst telling him to get the right photo (I had my skirt hiked up so my ass was half on show.

“You have to..Ughhhh” he says and puts the camera down, climbs up shaking his head at me & pulls the windscreen wiper away from the windscreen.

I finished and half climbed down, half fell down and he went to put the bonnet back up.

“Crunch” & I get the ‘what the fuck have you done now Violet’ look.

He Put the Friggen Windscreen Wiper down, he should’ve put it back. It got snapped and I got sent in to buy electrical tape from the servo. Inside were five truckers all talking to the guy behind the counter, all of whom were standing around the monitor that caught me flashing my boobs. I could’ve died. I’m a whore on the inside. but so shy on the outside!

Anyways here’s the pic from the petrol pump.

I think that I should now qualify for some scavenger hunt award love…even if I didn’t get it all off – It’s Winter here in Australia you know.

So Now that I’ve struck up the courage to both take the photos AND publish them – How about you join in the Scavenger hunt fun too?

Violetxx

Self Depricating Rant

I just wanted to post this before I try and get the nerve up to post the Images I’ve taken for Sapio Slut’s Scavenger Hunt. I’m not posting it looking for re-assurance or attention or anything like that. More because I want people to understand why I’m doing what I’m doing and taking part despite having major self image issues. So here’s what I wrote last Sunday after taking my first scavenger hunt Photo.

Normally I’m shy & ashamed of myself. Something I’m trying to discard, I’m working on letting go and fully wholly embracing my self, my sexuality and my Inner Whore.

Although in my sexual relationship with X I always (& still do to some extent) feel like I’ve always been un-inhibited
and able to fully exoress myself sexually, the same sexual relationship, & the emotional one too has left me scarred.
Society & its pressures have also taken their toll on my self image & self esteem, which was an issue well before I was overweight. I rarely feel good about myself either as a person or physically, that’s why I try to hide behind a wall of shyness.A Wall that needs to get torn down, so that I can eventually show off the person I’m rebuilding behind that wall. I’m all about sexual positivity and people being able to express themselves, their sexuality and their kinks proudly, yet I fail to express myself in such a way, I lock myself away, try and hide it deep within, but bit by bit Im doing what I can to unfurl myself and let myself be free.

It started with -B. OMG poor -B. The first night I spent with him, I swear I was shaking with fear. X was the first guy
I actually let go with sexually. I was hot, full of confidence and ready to let go of the sexual hang ups Id already managed
to collect by the time I was 16.Now I’m 31 and ready to let go of the hang ups I have procured in those past 15 yrs!

I want to be able to give myself over to -B 100%, let him have all of me sexually. It’s his fault I started on my journey to
discrobe the shyness and the shame that have built up over the years. And honestly, I wouldn’t be here without him, either emotionally, or physically writing this blog. He was and still is my catalyst. The truth be told, there’s no better man to put a broken woman back together. Don’t get me wrong, he’s not perfect, and can be a little shit at times , and together we’ve had some speed humps, even some mountains – silent mountains, but I do love and adore him. He’s just….
Well he’s my -B:P and although we could never actually be together, I love the friendship I have with him. I don’t want to
be his girlfriend, I love him to much to be with him like that. Part of me would break if I couldn’t have him in my life. So
I’m only too happy to stand back & be his friend, benefits or not. I just hope that in time I can help him as much as he’s helped me. I hope he will learn to trust me & finally, truly know that I am there for him, that he can trust me, and know that I do understand him, sometimes even better than he knows himself.

Of course I’d love to be able to fuck him again, shit I’d love to be able to fuck the guy three times a day for the rest of my life! But, honestly, seeing him happy is slightly more satisfying…. just lol.Anyway that enough -B praising for now he might get a swollen head!

So Very long story cut short, In my efforts to shed the cloak of shyness and insecurity and continue travelling my path
to being sexually free I went and got my tits out, on a freezing cold Winter’s Night To take part in Half Nekkid Thursday,
Sapio Slut’s Scavenger hunt & perhaps Wanton Wednesdays. All of which I see as being another tool to help me let go!

So with all of that said I guess it’s time for me to post the photos I took. I just hope It doesn’t cause the impression of me to change…but if I loose readers because you don’t like how I look, or you can’t stand fat chicks, or even if you disagree with what Im doing. I’m not doing it for anyone but me – so you won’t be missed. Those who stay and continue to read and talk and love me, I will simply love you more…can you tell Im scared

Violetxx

WTMFI Wednesdays Week #21

All About My Feet

It’s taken me a whole week to get around to finishing this round of WTMFI Wednesdays, all because I wanted to be able to add my own photos to it – plus I’m Lazy.

“Have You Ever…”

This Week’s Questions

1. Have you ever sucked on another person’s toes? Have you ever had your toes sucked on? Which did you prefer? If you haven’t, would you like to?
2. Have you ever worshipped another person’s feet or had your feet worshipped? If you haven’t, what do you think about it?
3. Have you ever been made to lick a person’s shoe or boot, or made someone lick your shoe or boot? If you haven’t, would you?
4. Have you ever spent hours looking at pictures of feet, most likely on the internet?
5. Have you ever gotten or given a foot job?

BONUS QUESTION:
Have you ever taken pictures of your feet and made them visible to the public? Where could we find these pictures?

My Answers

1.Have you ever sucked on another person’s toes? Have you ever had your toes sucked on? Which did you prefer? If you haven’t, would you like to?

my feet are open to being worshipped

I’ve never had the opportunity to suck on someone’s toes, at least not that I can recall. X has an absolute aversion to feet (amongst many other things). Thus I’ve never had my toes sucked on, but I certainly wouldn’t say no if someone wished to do so.

2. Have you ever worshipped another person’s feet or had your feet worshipped? If you haven’t, what do you think about it?

I’ve never worshipped someone else’s feet, nor had mine worshipped. I once had an encounter that included an amazing foot rub whilst my foot rubbed against his dick under the table whilst we were having after dinner drinks with friends. I’ll never forget it. What do I think of foot worship? Not much, haven’t really considered it much before, I certainly wouldn’t complain if someone wanted to worship mine.

3.Have you ever been made to lick a person’s shoe or boot, or made someone lick your shoe or boot? If you haven’t, would you?

No & No.  I am however incredibly open when it comes to people’s sexual kinks, so If I was with someone who would get off on it I’d be a more than willing participant, submissive or dominant – I’d be happy to do whatever they enjoyed most.

4.Have you ever spent hours looking at pictures of feet, most likely on the internet?

No I never really have, although I have spent the past week trying to take photos of my feet that I like and then an hour or so today editing them, but that’s about it for me & images of feet. If you were asking about womens Underwear or ‘Panties’ (fuck I hate that word) it would be a completely different story. Those who follow me on twitter would know, I’m constantly posting pics of ‘panties’ in my sex via violet tumblr stream & tweeting them. I often waste hours & hours on tumblr looking at them & re-blogging them. Another fetish I ‘picked up’ off a previous sexual partner.

5.Have you ever gotten or given a foot job?

I’ve both given & received, but never to the point of orgasm.

And Once a guy wanted me to kind of squash his nuts with my foot whilst he went down on me…which I of course obliged.

BONUS QUESTION:

Have you ever taken pictures of your feet and made them visible to the public? Where could we find these pictures?

Last week my Answer Would’ve been no, but obviously this week the Answer is Yes. Obviously you can view them here!! – but if you have a thing for feet just comment and Ill gladly send you the 20+ Images of my feet that didn’t make it into this post, and if you’re really nice I’d be more than willing to take more.

So that’s it for my feet, but what are feet if they are without shoes? I have a very very special pair of Shoes, a pair of Doc’s. What’s so special about them? Well I’ve got a size 10 (Australian) feet so it’s often hard to find cool shoes that fit, let alone in an op shop. I scored this super rare pair of marbelled cherry red & black Doctor Marten’s for just $8 at salvo’s in Caringbah. They Rock my world and I love them to death. I’ll probably get buried in them… So here they are.

Violet xx

Wanton Wednesday #13

After talking about Wanton Wednesday in my last weekend reading post I’ve really been looking forward to this post. I had the Perfect Image in my head. Like most of my creative and artistic visions it didn’t quite pan out how I wanted it to. I blame X and his dodgy photography skills.

I wanted a hot shot of the side of my ass climbing into X’s truck – but he fucked it up… So you get my other favourite part of my body…My leg, adorned in my favourite stripey sock. Not X-Rated, rather G rated in fact, but I love it – Hopefully that’s all that counts to qualify for Wanton Wednesday.

I was taking pictures of my feet and legs for last weeks WTMFI Wednesdays Post and got inspired by a photo I took last year. I really have a ‘thing’ for both stockings and stripes and considering it’s almost my favourite part of my body – I love this photo – so If I have somehow #FAILED in my first Wanton Wednesday I promise I’ll do better next week. (can you see how much self esteem and belief I ooze!! seriously need to work on that fail too.)

And may I also present the view from my womb…

I think I shall be spending the weekend giving X photography lessons so I can get the shot I want of my ass! Then I’ll feel confident that my Wanton Wednesday Images do pass the bar.

Violetxx