My blog, My Body, My Camera, My Life

Since I began this blog I’ve been having so much fun. I’ve been exploring parts of myself I never really knew existed and have been doing so in ways I never would’ve. Originally my intention was to show others that not all women are porn hating prudes, Soon I discovered I really didn’t need to prove that point, as there are so many hot and horny female bloggers… I felt the point I wanted to make was already being made.

Since my blogs conception I had planned to review my latest sex toy purchase, the We Vibe2 f , but never could’ve imagined anyone would send you free toys to review. My current arrangement with AdultSexToys.com came after I entered a give away they were running. Soon I will be finished with my first batch of reviews and will be running my first Give Away, Celebrating the launch of AdultSexToys.com new website,

Becoming affiliated with any company wasn’t something I had planned on, I wanted to blog merely for the love of it, but If I’m talking all about sex toys, it’s reasonable to assume someone may wish to buy sex toys I’m discussing. And as it doesn’t cost the customer anything why not become an affiliate and get a cut from the company rather than sending them customers for free? Being an affiliate allowed me to move my blog to it’s own domain where I could dress it up in any theme I wanted to and host whatever content I wanted to in whatever way I want to… Im not too cool with conforming to rules lol.

Most importantly I started this blog to express myself, discuss what was at the time my two kinda complex sexual relationships and planned on continuing to do so, along with a mixture of weird sex facts, Porn Pics and clips, and well whatever else I found to blog about related to sex. Just like Stienbeck wrote “the dreams of mice and men often go awry” and now I’ve both lost my fwb – now simply known as -B and am not really intending to speak to X let alone fuck him anytime soon – you’ll realise why shortly.

I loved that I found WTMFI Wednesdays, I love memes, and am the queen of the over share, so it really has been an easy way to share more of my sexual self without having to work out how to structure the posts myself. It’s kind of like formspring, but organised! So many questions, so many answers. Bing, Bang, Boom, an easy post to write that truly shares my sexual self with my readers.

Then I found Wanton Wednesdays, Sapio Slut’s Scavenger Hunt & Half Nekkid Thursday. Years ago I’d made sex tapes and brought the camera into my sex life, but these three sites gave me a real excuse to both push my boundaries and become more confidant within my own skin. I never realised just what a rush it would be to flash my tits at the camera whilst out in Public. It made me feel re-born. The First time there wasn’t anyone around, but the 2^nd time was at a really busy truck stop right beside the petrol pump. It was such an overwhelming sensation of freedom. On my way home I was planning just how I could pull off taking photos at some of the other places on the scavenger hunt list.

I was very hesitant to post the pictures, I’ve never much liked the skin I exist within. I even went so far as to publish a self deprecating rant before posting the pictures because I am not happy with my body and am kind of ashamed of it. But the response of my readers and twitter friends was so supportive and encouraging that I felt like a whole new door was opening for me. I was really starting to accept myself.

My first Wanton Wednesday was just my leg in my favourite striped sock, I had planned a much much hotter, much more artistic shot, but X sucked as a photographer. Yet that didn’t matter, the response I got on my site and on twitter… yet again was fantastic.

I didn’t make it to half Nekkid Thursday, a huge bomb got dropped on my life. One that still could possibly cause even further damage. I was issued a fine for over $104,000.00 – Why? Very Basically because I share a roof one night a week with my ex partner and a Government Bureaucrat decided that means he should be financially responsible for me. I had always been upfront and 100% honest with Centrelink (Australian agency responsible for all kinds of Government Benefits) before I even moved in with this person….Which is X (He may seem or it may come across as though he was my husband, I’ve probably even called him my ex husband – because that’s what I’m used to calling him & I feel expresses the true relationship easily & succinctly.) Yes I do live with him, even if it’s one day a week, Yes I do sleep with him… but that’s none of their fucking business! And yes we share a child. So what’s the difference? He is not my husband, we are not in any kind of committed relationship other than that of parenting our son, and most importantly he isn’t, nor has he even been financially responsible for me. If it weren’t for 4 weeks that we lived together as a couple way back when I was 16 this issue wouldn’t exist.

I told X of the situation when he got home for the night on Saturday. He didn’t take it too lightly. Which I do understand. He has basically been told that he’s financially responsible for me, and therefore responsible for the $104k. A rather large, rather violent fight eventuated from this.

Why am I telling you about all of this?

Because my amazing Camera, the one that was helping to really pull me out of my shell got broken. I managed to save my laptop, but the camera was a casualty of the war.

As much as the experiences with the camera lifted me up, the sadness and depression of loosing it buries me. Stupid huh? Depressed over a camera. But it’s more than the camera, it’s that way of expressing myself and freeing myself that I’m grieving for.

Sorry for the rambling, rant like post, but I’m seriously bummed by this. I wish I could run away and hide with -B. Damn him for falling in Love. I need him to fuck my pain away.

I’ll overcome the loss of the camera, I’ll start re composing myself. I guess I’m also sad I no longer have someone to take my sexual frustrations out on, on top of the feeling that the sexual/ spiritual journey I was on has hit a roadblock with loosing X and the camera. Fuck my life’s pathetic at the moment,

Hopefully I’ll get back to the happy fun me I was when I began my blog and hopefully Ill sort this fine BS out. I don’t really want to keep living with X, but I don’t want to break my kids family up. Hard decisions lie ahead… Beware this ride may become bumpy… and not in a fun sexy way.

But I hope you’ll be seeing more of me soon

Violet xx



Self Depricating Rant

I just wanted to post this before I try and get the nerve up to post the Images I’ve taken for Sapio Slut’s Scavenger Hunt. I’m not posting it looking for re-assurance or attention or anything like that. More because I want people to understand why I’m doing what I’m doing and taking part despite having major self image issues. So here’s what I wrote last Sunday after taking my first scavenger hunt Photo.

Normally I’m shy & ashamed of myself. Something I’m trying to discard, I’m working on letting go and fully wholly embracing my self, my sexuality and my Inner Whore.

Although in my sexual relationship with X I always (& still do to some extent) feel like I’ve always been un-inhibited
and able to fully exoress myself sexually, the same sexual relationship, & the emotional one too has left me scarred.
Society & its pressures have also taken their toll on my self image & self esteem, which was an issue well before I was overweight. I rarely feel good about myself either as a person or physically, that’s why I try to hide behind a wall of shyness.A Wall that needs to get torn down, so that I can eventually show off the person I’m rebuilding behind that wall. I’m all about sexual positivity and people being able to express themselves, their sexuality and their kinks proudly, yet I fail to express myself in such a way, I lock myself away, try and hide it deep within, but bit by bit Im doing what I can to unfurl myself and let myself be free.

It started with -B. OMG poor -B. The first night I spent with him, I swear I was shaking with fear. X was the first guy
I actually let go with sexually. I was hot, full of confidence and ready to let go of the sexual hang ups Id already managed
to collect by the time I was 16.Now I’m 31 and ready to let go of the hang ups I have procured in those past 15 yrs!

I want to be able to give myself over to -B 100%, let him have all of me sexually. It’s his fault I started on my journey to
discrobe the shyness and the shame that have built up over the years. And honestly, I wouldn’t be here without him, either emotionally, or physically writing this blog. He was and still is my catalyst. The truth be told, there’s no better man to put a broken woman back together. Don’t get me wrong, he’s not perfect, and can be a little shit at times , and together we’ve had some speed humps, even some mountains – silent mountains, but I do love and adore him. He’s just….
Well he’s my -B:P and although we could never actually be together, I love the friendship I have with him. I don’t want to
be his girlfriend, I love him to much to be with him like that. Part of me would break if I couldn’t have him in my life. So
I’m only too happy to stand back & be his friend, benefits or not. I just hope that in time I can help him as much as he’s helped me. I hope he will learn to trust me & finally, truly know that I am there for him, that he can trust me, and know that I do understand him, sometimes even better than he knows himself.

Of course I’d love to be able to fuck him again, shit I’d love to be able to fuck the guy three times a day for the rest of my life! But, honestly, seeing him happy is slightly more satisfying…. just lol.Anyway that enough -B praising for now he might get a swollen head!

So Very long story cut short, In my efforts to shed the cloak of shyness and insecurity and continue travelling my path
to being sexually free I went and got my tits out, on a freezing cold Winter’s Night To take part in Half Nekkid Thursday,
Sapio Slut’s Scavenger hunt & perhaps Wanton Wednesdays. All of which I see as being another tool to help me let go!

So with all of that said I guess it’s time for me to post the photos I took. I just hope It doesn’t cause the impression of me to change…but if I loose readers because you don’t like how I look, or you can’t stand fat chicks, or even if you disagree with what Im doing. I’m not doing it for anyone but me – so you won’t be missed. Those who stay and continue to read and talk and love me, I will simply love you more…can you tell Im scared

Violetxx

Get Me Off This Island Of Insanity

Australia Is No Longer Free

I’ve always lived on an Island, It’s a beautiful place to be, or at least it was an Island Paradise.

Where you can be young and eternally free, where you don’t need to worry about having your personal freedoms taken away & you are free to celebrate your sexuality with great pride. At least that What I once thought, Now I’m Ashamed to be Australian.

Wake Up Australia we are no longer free, I Suggest replacing our Existing National Anthem to something along these lines:

“Australians all let us regret
That we are no longer free
Porn’s been banned, Our net’s being scanned
It’s a controversy
As We ban those with lesser tits
Or women who squirt so rare

At This Stage, Scream Out In Rage
This isn’t bloody Fair

In Rage Filled Strains We now shall sing
This isn’t bloody fair

For those who wish to visit us & want to have a toss
We’ll take porn from your hands
Whilst raiding our own sex stores
Now Known for all of our bans
As well as all the Porn We’ve seized
We now have plans to share
Id & net history combine
This isn’t Fucking Fair

In rage filled strains we all should scream
Australia Isn’t Fair”

Australia Now Search and seize Pornography from those who are entering the Country Cuntry, rifling through your baggage, mobile phones, laptops and more as you pass through Customs.

The have Also Started Raiding Australian Sex Stores Amongst Many Other Equally Ridiculous Things, As Reported by The Australian Sex Party. (it’s a long list of Shame!)

Our Government Wishes to Impose a ‘net filter‘ on all Australian Internet Service Providers to Protect us from ‘un desirable’ Content. Another Proposal is to have ISP’s  not only store a copy of our internet browsing history, but to link such histories to personally identifiable Information such as Passport numbers and even Medical Records.

A Queensland Couple were charged after using an abortive drug similar to RU-486 (Sources: Direct Action| The Brisbane Times).

And Most disgusting of all – Australian Doctors Considering Performing ‘Surgical Cuts’ Into young female babies & children in attempt to cut back on back yard female genital mutilation.

Can Someone Please Save Me from this Fuckwittery & get me off this God Forsaken Island!

It has gotten beyond stupidity, passed straight through Insanity and gone to a place so far beyond it that it is yet to be named. Kevin Rudd may not like sex, but that’s his personal choice. I don’t give a fuck who he is, He doesn’t get to decide what kind of Porn I watch. I agree all forms of child pornography and  beastiality should be Illegal and Banned, along with Porn that includes any Illegal acts such as snuff porn, and that which shows or depicts Rape. Call me a hypocrite, but sadly Law Makers do have to bow down to the Lowest Common Denominator.

That is, Porn Depicting Rape needs to be banned or at least controlled as there are dumb idiots that can’t make the connection that it’s acting & not real, and in their stupid simple inbred minds they begin to think forcing someone to have sex isn’t just a turn on, but completely acceptable – Do you get what I’m saying? It is the Government’s responsibility to protect us from such fuckwits, however in the process of doing so they have taken it too far.

The Lowest Common Denominator theory is why we have speed limits, and rules to enforce wearing seatbelts – because some people are just so stupid they can’t think for themselves.

Why can’t I watch Women Ejaculating or ‘Squirting’? What is up With Fisting? Or Flat chested Women for that matter?  It is not their fault they aren’t well endowed. As long as a performer is over 18 & fully consenting (with the exceptions mentioned above) why can’t I watch it? Buy it? Or Partake in the making of it?

Why?

Because Kevin Rudd is a fuckwit! (sorry -B if you read this) I truly regret voting for him.

Until some foreign Knight In Shining Armour Arrives to Rescue Me – I’m Joining the Australian Sex Party (Political Party) & voting in the one true way it counts, by voting at the polls, come the next Election (Due before April 2011). As Should you.

Visit www.sexparty.org.au And follow them on twitter @aussexparty & help prevent Australia from becoming an Island Ruled with Amish like Prudes In Charge.

You can also sign the Petition against the Governments Mandatory Internet Filtering Policy at EFA. And Visit www.somebodythinkofthechildren.com as well as OpenInternet.com.au to find out how you can take action against the Governments Proposed Internet Censorship

Please Tweet & Retweet This Post before our Island Paradise turns into Big Brother Hell.

Violet xx

If by some chance you like my version of the national Anthem, please feel free to re-post it, just include a link back to this original Post

Ashamed to be Australian

I call Bullshit – Australia’s Anti-Porn Customs Policy & Female Genital Mutilation

I am normally Pretty Proud to be Australian. Australians are pretty laid back, down to earth and usually pretty open (Of course there are millions of exceptions). We May not be as outspoken about our love of our own country and culture as Americans are, but that’s just the way Australia is… Laid back and Down to Earth.

On Form Spring I was recently Asked Me “What is your favourite thing about living in Australia?”

I love that where I currently Live – Which is in the country, Not a city – we get Koalas In the tree in our backyard. Trust me, although I regularly see Kangaroos about, they certainly don’t exist in the main streets of the city nor even in country towns. I have also never once in 31years ‘Thrown a Shrimp on the Barbie”. One – we call them Prawns, two we don’t bbq them!

I Love the laid back culture, I love that the majority of people I’ve met & known are open about sexuality and being gay/lesbian/bi/trans or any other alternative to heterosexually monogamous is rarely an issue. Sydney hosts the amazing Gay & Lesbian Mardi Gras, Since  People of every sexual persuasion have been able to loudly & proudly Celebrate their sexuality whilst Marching down Oxford Street. It is the largest Gay Pride celebration in the world. And the sleaze ball…Just another event during Mardi Gras, wear as much or as little as you like and party like there’s no tomorrow. (During Mardi Gras some glittery body paint counts as clothing!

Australia Is also, for the Majority, Pro-Choice. A woman has not only the right, but the resources available to terminate an un-wanted Pregnancy. RU486 - or Mifepristone  which is also known as ‘The Abortion Pill’- is legal, easily acceptable & affordable with a prescription from an authorised prescriber. Surgical Abortions are also legal (or in the case of Queensland they are ‘de-criminalised’) accessible and affordable. In Southern Australia you can have an abortion bulk billed to Medicare, costing the patient nothing. In other states costs differ depending on the clinic and length of gestation, yet are all easily accessible before 20 weeks.

Visit Family Planning In NSW or Abortion Access for further information regarding Abortions in Australia.

But now I have to scream ‘Hypocrisy’

A couple in Queensland are facing imprisonment after using a drug from Overseas to induce an abortion. – Such Bullshit

Then there’s the new Customs Rule that allows Australian Customs Officials to search through your luggage as well as Digital Media devices such as Lap tops and phones looking for Pornography. Even Violet Blue has chimed in on this stupid and ridiculous new Policy.

As you arrive in the Country Custom’s are now asking if you have any Pornography with you on the ticket you are required to fill out to enter the country. Apparently they are only looking for Illegal pornography, that which includes images of children and such. A Customs and Border Protection spokesperson said the change was because the term “pornography” was more recognisable to travellers than the term “objectionable material”.

But it’s Bullshit and a complete Invasion of people’s privacy. There’s no stated definition of Pornography mentioned, so pictures of your wife or girlfriend skinny dipping on your honeymoon – pictures obviously only taken for your own viewing pleasure could land you a fine if you fail to tick yes to the question asking if you have any pornography with you. Where does the Government get off – are we not allowed to have any privacy. Having your belongings searched by a stranger is bad enough let alone your computer or phone!

Pornography Is legal in Australia, Of course there are limits to what is legal (such as performer’s having to be over 18 etc), but it is Legal none the less. What makes this hypocrisy worse is that the Country’s Capital, Canberra is the place to go to buy the edgier, harder core porn. It also just happens to be where our Politicians congregate. All I have to say is BullShit!

But that’s not the Worst of it…

AUSTRALIAN doctors are considering a controversial form of genital mutilation on baby girls.

The practice involving cutting a girl’s genitals, sometimes with razors or pieces of glass, could be allowed in a clinical setting to stem illegal backyard procedures which are leaving young girls scarred for life.

The Royal Australian New Zealand College of Obstetricians will next month discuss backing “ritual nicks”, a modified form of genital mutilation.

But experts are divided on whether to allow the practice, given that in some cultures it is used to remove the sexual feelings of women.

Female genital mutilation has been outlawed in Australia since the 1990s but is common among African, Asian and Middle Eastern communities.

With the rise in Somali and Sudanese numbers in Australia, doctors are seeing more cases of young girls, and women, needing surgery after illegal operations. Backers of “ritual nick” said it was a superficial procedure leaving no long-term damage.

RANZCOG secretary Gino Pecoraro said the policy would be discussed at next month’s Women’s Health Committee meeting.

“We will need to start to think about [its introduction] but we would have to speak to community leaders from Australia,” Dr Pecoraro said.

“If a nick could meet the cultural needs of a particular woman, then it might save her from going through what can really be drastic surgery.

“But we need to make sure we do not legitimise the ritualistic maiming of children.”

But many are outraged, some saying a “ritual nick” is still child abuse and legitimises female mutilation.

University of Newcastle’s professor of perinatal and infant psychiatry Dr Louise Newman said some doctors were being approached to perform the procedure.

“We know it is happening here . . . but [the] majority are done in the home in a traditional way,” she said.

Reasons given by practising populations include religion, despite the Koran not requiring it, and that it can help maintain cleanliness and health.

“The problem is some people see it similar to male circumcision but the reasons for both are very different as well as the impact,” Dr Newman said.

“The actual procedure can be pretty devastating.”

source News.com.au

I get that it is happening, It is disgusting, but it is still happening in Australia. Young girls having their genitals mutilated in gross, un-hygenic backyard ceremonies. But is allowing Doctors to perform ANY form of genital mutilation in any way acceptable? My Answer is no.

I wouldn’t even have my son circumcised, I don’t think any parent or person for that matter has the right to alter the body of another, be it your child or not, without their expressed permission. If my son would like to be circumcised I want that choice to be his. It is his body who the fuck am I to have parts of his anatomy cut off without his informed consent.

Female circumcision, although it can be compared to male circumcision it really is a whole other game. It truly is genital mutilation. No matter how little you remove from a females genitals you are still doing damage to her future sexual health. It’s just despicable.

There is an issue, an important issue that needs to be addressed here. But I seriously doubt that having Doctors ‘nick” female genitalia will satisfy those who are seeking to destroy their daughters sexual organs. I think that Education and stronger Laws threatening more severe penalties would be something worth considering.

I simply just can’t agree with it in any way shape or form.

Here endeth my Anti Australia Rant.

Violet xx